The Stupefying Reach of Childhood Fantasy as a Coping Mechanism

If your music making isn't for you, it isn't for anyone. New Girl It's hard to describe what my life is now. To say I'm an instructional designer, writer, and podcaster seems odd but it's the truth. This is my life without music. I ceased all gigging activity last April. I put my horn in … Continue reading The Stupefying Reach of Childhood Fantasy as a Coping Mechanism

The Weakened Warrior

Some of this is ugly, brace yourself. I think I have always had a problem with rage. I've never done any work on it. I have never asked myself if it was a little much. Sometimes it is a just response, sometimes it isn't. All I know is that it never feels good and it … Continue reading The Weakened Warrior

A Dissection of Unfair Expectation

In this relatively healthier life, I have arrived at an understanding of what used to be one of the dirtiest words in goal-seeking: "expectation". For nearly the entirety of my life, expectations weren't "projected outcomes from a series of actions". They weren't, as the Oxford Dictionary defines, "a strong belief that something will happen or … Continue reading A Dissection of Unfair Expectation