Some of this is ugly, brace yourself. I think I have always had a problem with rage. I've never done any work on it. I have never asked myself if it was a little much. Sometimes it is a just response, sometimes it isn't. All I know is that it never feels good and it … Continue reading The Weakened Warrior
I have something to admit. Over the past week I have grieved a truth I couldn't own until I found out what I found out through my last articles. That truth is this: My intentions to kick performance anxiety were never healthy. Let me explain. I recently picked up my instrument for the first time … Continue reading Who is Allowed to Show Up to the Gig?
This article is an extension of a previously written article, Ground Zero. "Knowledge is only a rumor until it lives in the bones." This is a quote I read in Brené Brown's latest book Dare to Lead. It's an Asaro Tribe saying (Papua, New Guinea). In my newfound freedom I found there is something I … Continue reading Ground Zero: Music Edition
This is it. I have been waiting for this moment for a very long time, finally feeling free enough, wise enough, and strong enough to put what I know into action. Technically this moment began a month ago, but I had to grieve, I had to let go, and my patterns regularly appeared to attempt … Continue reading Ground Zero
In this relatively healthier life, I have arrived at an understanding of what used to be one of the dirtiest words in goal-seeking: "expectation". For nearly the entirety of my life, expectations weren't "projected outcomes from a series of actions". They weren't, as the Oxford Dictionary defines, "a strong belief that something will happen or … Continue reading A Dissection of Unfair Expectation
"Knowledge is only a rumor until it lives in the bones." -Asaro Tribe (Papua, New Guinea) Something you must know about me: I love sleep. I joke and say I love sleep more than people. I truly believe the key to my greatness and my happiness lies in getting a full, restful night of sleep. … Continue reading Acceptance
I was supposed to spend three days on a work project this weekend, but when it was time to sit down and get to work I couldn't get going. My place was a mess. I couldn't concentrate. I pulled out my post-it note caddy and began writing down tasks, everything I wanted to fix about … Continue reading Breaking Up Is Hard To Do
I have just returned from a company convention in Las Vegas where I worked 70 to 80 hours. After two months of keeping to myself and just doing my job at my little cubicle, I ended up cooperating with some amazing coworkers. For the first time they got to see who I am as a … Continue reading Dream vs. Obsession
There are only three ways I have ever operated at work: do my job, go above and beyond, or razzle dazzle. What is the razzle dazzle? For those of you who have never seen Chicago the musical, here are a few lyrics from the song Billy Flynn sings. He coaches Roxie Hart on how to … Continue reading The Razzle Dazzle
I did it. I quit. I quit a career that I built over two decades, even though it feels like I was just getting started. I set myself on the task of quitting all the way back in January. I started telling friends, I began asking fellow quitters how they left their careers. Quitting became … Continue reading Detach, Woman!